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ONE HUNDRED FORTY-ONE [Nov. 15th, 2008|12:32 am]
[Current Mood | bouncy]

i've been spending too much time on the computer. i have to move it out of my room. i'll probably do that before i go to bed tonight.

old videos of me skating from this summer (august and september). it's possible that the second video is the last time i skated. actualy, i'm pretty sure it is. they're nothign special but it was the first time i had tried either trick and i got them both right away.

heelflip down a fourstair (i had never heelflipped down anything. sorry you can't see it well.)


boardslide the park rail.


random videos. i'm going to go to the park tomorrow and try to hustle some drinks for change, haha. and i'll be skating too. :D

oh good news, it's not a tumor. just sinuses.
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ONE-HUNDRED TWENTY-ONE [Sep. 14th, 2008|12:27 am]
[Current Mood | anxious]

is anyone else's city completely out of gasoline at every freaking gas station?
thanks, ike.

can i not go to bed before 12?
thanks, fringe.

will this stupid guitar riff i wrote ever get out of my head? it's not even that good.
thanks, self.

why do cats have to miss the litter box sometimes?
thanks, yahfeh.

can my sins not be forgiven?
OH YES THEY CAN!
(thanks to Jesus)
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ONE-HUNDRED TWENTY [Sep. 12th, 2008|05:09 pm]
[Current Mood | amused]

i have this looming sense of the "end of the world".

trib time, everybody! :D
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ONE-HUNDRED NINE [Jul. 28th, 2008|11:58 pm]
[Current Mood | accomplished]
[Current Music |hanson - fire on the mountain]



new today. i am purely Jesus Christ's.

(if this dominates your friend page and you want me to lj-cut it, let me know)
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ONE-HUNDRED EIGHT [Jul. 20th, 2008|01:17 am]
[Current Mood | distressed]
[Current Music |hanson - i will come to you]

"sometimes we don’t do things we want to do, so that others won’t know we want to do them."

but what if this thing i don't do, i don't do because i want the other to know that i don't want them to know i want to do the thing i don't do, so that they'll know i really want to do it, even though they probably won't ever know that i'm sending the message that i don't want them to know that i want to so that they'll know that i want to?

hmph. :(
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ONE-HUNDRED [Jun. 4th, 2008|10:54 pm]
[Current Mood | peaceful]

it's about time i recount the past few days. this has to be a big entry, it's number one-hundred, come on man.

i'll start by saying my past few weeks have been unbelievably busy. in a good way, but it's been kind of difficult at the same time because i've had almost no time to get together with anyone to hang out.

as you all know, two weeks ago i got a car, which has been amazing. i've had so much freedom to have a life even though it's been consumed in work and whatnot. it's still been great, i can run errands when i need to and take care of my own affairs without having to wait for my mom to get home with her car. i made my first monthly payment on it to williejoe last week, it was exciting seriously.

so thursday i went to the turnaround. anne's brother rob rode with me in my car, just me and him, so it was good to get the time to spend with him and get to know him a little better. we got there and shanelle was there. if i haven't mentioned shanelle, she is a girl i met through anne, like she and anne are best friends and now she and i are too, we talk all the time and she actually led worship with me 2 weeks ago at the turnaround; she plays keyboard and sings. it was anointed and glorious. and that was all good.. service was good.. but oh man, afetrwards rob and shanelle and i and jennifer and (king) james all went out to robert's truck, with robert of course, and sat in the truck and worshipped and sought God for his glory and presence and whatnot and it happened. we all got indescribably messed up. and there was this smell.. i'm pretty sure it was God's fragrance, like we were smelling the Holy Spirit.. i don't really know how else to describe it but ever time i smelled it i got completely stoned out of my mind and actually collapsed on the ground a couple of times. it was incredible hahah. so that was glorious. rob and i went back to anniston finally about 1:30 in the morning, lol. good night.

saturday i went to montgomery with this guy derrick, his worship band was invited to play at this youth rally and he needed a bass player so he called me up about a month ago. saturday was the first practice we had, it was that morning and it actually went really well for the first practice. we drove down to montgomery that afternoon, set up there and practiced again and at one point shanelle showed up, she had driven over from auburn for the service. the service happened and it was good. worship was intense and real, and the dramas that the church's team did were pretty powerful. i loved it. after the service shanelle rode back to anniston with us and stayed the night at my house

shanelle and i went to church the next morning, and rob came too which was very exciting. i think the Lord both totally ministered to the both of them, it was awesome. after church we went to los mex and ate and chilled, me shanelle rob jeremiah derek ryan david mallory and.. i feel like there were others but i don't remember. then we went to books a million and hung out and prayed and whatnot, bravehart showed up and that was great cause i hadn't seen him in a few weeks. i missed him a lot. then shanelle and i went to byron and tasha's house, we prayed witht hem and tyler, and some crazy stuff was happening, i won't go into details. it was pretty good though, i think.

after that shanelle and i went back to my house to get our things, i packed and drove us down to her place in auburn and stayed the night there. the ride there was great though we were both tired, we put on some worship music and got depp in God's presence, then when we arrived at her house we put it on int he house and worshipped and danced in her living room. it was rad. after that a couple of the japanese guys she's friends with came over and we watched this movie about Joseph from the old testament. i fell asleep on the couch at one point and woke back up, and we decided to turn the movie off. i ende dup going to sleep accidentally about 1:30 and it turned out that they were there up and talking til about 4:30 of 5. insane. i slept through all of it, even them leaving. the japanese boys promised they are gonna come to the turnaround tomorrow though which will be exciting cause they need to get dominated by the Spirit of God! yep.

the next morning (monday if you're not keeping up) i woke up around 8:45, read the Word for about half an hour, then fell back asleep. woke up again at 10:15 and sat around for a while, played some n64, then finally around 11 i went to wake shanelle up. she and i cooked breakfast together, we has eggs with sausage and cheese in them, fried sausage, biscuits, and strawberries with powdered sugar. excellent breakfast if you ask me; we did a mighty fine job. then she got ready for class and i took her there and dropped her off. she gave me her keys to come back to her house and get cleaned up but when i got there i COULD NOT figure out how to get the door opened; none of the keys were working. so i drove to burger king to use the bathroom, came back and tried again for about fifteen more minutes, then left to go to walmart then pick shanelle up about 2:30. we went back to her place and showed me the trick to her lock, it's real screwy. i took a shower then took her to pay her power bill, then we went back to her house so she could get a shower. my friend emma was supposed to be coming through auburn about this time so i texted her to find out where she was but it turns out she had had a wreck in montgomery so she couldn't come. sad, we were going to go get dinner together. so after shanelle got ready i packed up my things and we went to this chinese place that has a sushi bar, down the street from her house. it was awesome, we found out that the lady who was our waitress was a Christian, and she was really sweet and fun to talk to.she took a picture with my camera of shanelle and i with our BEAUTIFUL plates of sushi, and let me tell you, that sushi was amazing. haha. she told me when i was leaving that i had to bring her the pictures for the sushi chef dave, so i'll do that next time i'm in auburn. haha.

after the sushi we drove an hour to montgomery to pick up shanelle's car from the church we had left it at, and it was cool becaue we ran into some of the poeple who were there at the service saturday so we got to talk to them and hear about what's going on in the future. they want to have us come back so, that's really exciting! i can't wait. shanelle and i then drove to her aunt's house right down the road and i got to meet her aunt who is really sweet and nice, and he little cousin Ivy, she has my last name for her fist name. how cool! i spent a while there hanging out with her and her aunt, before finally leaving at 9:30, and boy it was sad to leave. after an amazing weekend like that, i tas pretty bummed. got back home about 12:30 and crashed in bed.

woke up the next morning at 7:55 to be at work at 8:30, and was honestly feeling terrible all morning. not sickly or tired or anything, just sad and unhappy to be back at work after such a great weekend filled with GLORY with God's people. there's a lot of openly athiest people at my work, and a lot of lukewarm or fake or double-minded Christians. only a few people really serve God. and as soon as i got there, one of the guys started asking me what was wrong with me to which i told him about my weekend, and about shanelle, so he started making comments about her and i being together and despite my telling him that we're not interested in each other like that, he kept insisting that it was gonna happen. i was getting irritated and blah, made my morning just a little bit worse. shanelle is a very amazing lovely girl but we're completely just friends, and so it was kind of annoying. and all morning long i was just having a hard time being around people, cause they're all pretty unrighteous.. my coworkers, anyways. so finally, the same guy (who is a double minded christian; puts on his holy face in front of me and takes it off in front of everyone else) walks past me and says "i'm sorry you're having a bad day man, i feel for you. i'm believing in Jesus name that God is going to lift your spirits." and that was it, he left. part of me was thinking "who is this guy to try to say something like that?" but most of me overcame that and started thinking "wow he's right, i'm not taking any kind of refuge in the Lord at all. i need to get there." so from that moment on i spent the rest of the day with the Lord. and not too long after that one of my coworkers came in who is a Christian and that made things a lot easier. it was a great day after that. i was cleaning theaters and my manager had the theater music that plays in the lobby and theaters before movies start turned off because it's terrible and annoying. so iwas singing at the top of my lungs in the theaters while i was cleaning them by myself, worshipping the Lord, and the Spirit of god filled every theater i was in. it was glorious.

got home and watched the season finale of LOST with my mom. and CRAP IT WAS SO GOOD/CRAZY/FRUSTRATING/INTENSE/AMAZING! i can't wait for season 5. went to my room, tyler called me and we talked for about half an hour before i fell asleep on the phone and i slept for about an hour, then shanelle called me and woke me up and we had a good conversation for about an hour. she's one of the very few people i can talk to on the phone for a long time. i enjoy it a lot.

woke up this morning and relaxed for my first real off-day in two weeks where i didn't have anything planned. slept in til about 10:30 and got up, took a shower, layed around the house and whatnot. around noon i left to go run some errands, dropped off the roll of film i had finished up in auburn at walmart, and then bravehart and i went out to lunch and whatnot. it was so good to hang out with him again for a substantial time, it was fun. he's definitely one of my closest bros. after that he and i went to circuit city to meet my mom at the verizon outlet there. and basically what happened is that she haggled with them and threatened to take business elsewhere until they gave her a free phone and gave me an even more expensive phone for almost nothing. it was gnarly, she kicked butt haha. so i now have the LG enV. it's bad to the bone. after that ben and i went to church, adn our youthgroup went to see narnia:prince caspian. it's the third time i've seen it, and each time i see it God reveals more about Himself to me through it. it's so good. aghhh. i'll probably write a whole separate entry about it later.

so now i'm home and have been playing with my new phone and talking to shanelle on facebook, and i'm super excited about the turnaround tomorrow night. it's going to be BALLIN'''''. that's all i have to say about that. it's going to be good. i think tomorrow will be tasha's first night back playing with us, and we're going to have a big crew coming from town; rob, derek, this guy tommy, david, byron, myself, tasha, lily, possibly emily and sydney, candace.. lots. glory will happen. :)

pretty soon i hope to teach david to play bass; he already has one he just needs to learn how to play with our group. so when that happens, i'm going to start playing electric guitar. THAT will be awesome :)

so all in all it's been an incredible week. God has been doing tremendous things and blessing me.. well, beyond measure :) but now it's time for me to go to sleep, i have to be at work at 9:45 and i want to go pick up my photos before then. if you actually read all of this, i love you. chances are that i probably love you anyways. but still. :) goodnight!
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NINETY-EIGHT [May. 27th, 2008|10:39 pm]
for everyone who asked for before and after pictures:

most recent of beardage, about a week ago.

and after )
also, mallory this is for you. )
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NINETY-FIVE [May. 18th, 2008|04:52 pm]
[Current Mood | jubilant]

You have paid it all, all to You i owe.
sin had left a crimson stain, You washed it white as snow.

OH PRAISE THE ONE WHO PAID MY DEBT, AND RAISED THIS LIFE UP FROM THE DEAD!
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88.5 [May. 6th, 2008|12:37 am]
also, sorry i haven't been commenting anybody lately. i have a lot of catching up to do. i have been reading, and i still love all of you.
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EIGHTY-EIGHT [May. 5th, 2008|11:56 pm]
i'm so stoked on right now. haha. that's pretty broad but right now is really good.

yesterday after church mallory and i went to this antique auction in jacksonville. it was so much fun, we didn't bid on anything so we just sat there for 2 and a half hours watching what was going on. it was amazing. the auctioneer was nuts haha. we were there waiting for these cameras to be auctioned off but when they got pulled out, some lady said that they had been left in this guy's will to someone so they couldn't be auctioned. complete bummer, so we left. haha but it was fun nonetheless. i want to go to more for sure, so we will. after that we went to subway and ate, and seriously got in a time warp for about two hours. we spent the majority of the time laying down on our respective sides of the booth benches inbetween sleep and awake (at least, i was half asleep) relaxing and zoning and talking and being goofy. it was a good way to spend 2 hours. after my body decided it didn't like sitting/laying down anymore we left and stopped by the skatepark in jacksonville. i skated around for a while to wake my body up, then got stoked on the miniramp and learned a couple of new things. she sat in the grass and enjoyed the outdoors and beauty of God's creation, and after a while we stopped both and started talking to these dudes about Jesus. it was interesting to say the least. but good. left from the skatepark and went to her house, i hung out with her mom and talked to her for a bit then she and i went into the other room and did neat crafty scrapbooky things. it was fun. and her mom came in the room and was playing guitar and singing, it was a good chill time. my mom called me after a while and i came home.

later on that night shanelle called me and we spent a wonderful hour and a half talking about the Lord and various things pertaining to Him, she was telling me about everything God has been doing with the japanese kids and ow awesome everything is going. she's an amazing girl who's so in love with Jesus, and she inspires me a lot. she plays keys and sings and we spent a while tlaking about what God's done in both of us as far as teaching us to play and worship with music, and it's cool cause she's experienced it all the same way i have. she's leading worship with me at the turnaround on thursday, i'm pretty stoked on that. she's super anointed and i know God is going to do something wonderful through it. she told me that everyone in her group of friends there (most of whom i know, including anne) is going home from auburn for the summer, so she'll be there by herself. it's only two hours away and since i see her every thursday at the turnaround, which is right inbetween where we live, i decided i'm going to be spending a lot of time in auburn this summer to keep her company and hang out and worship and stuff, and she is going to be here in anniston some during july cause anne and i both live here, so i'm excited about that.

today i went by the skatepark and learned nosestalls. when i got there, an ambulance was there and paramedics were checking this kid out, apparently he did something weird on his friend's board and he broke his ankle. so that was crazy. also, i hurt my hip and elbow. boo! bravehart came over a while ago, we chilled in my room and talked for a little bit. it was cool.

ALSOOOOOOO I'M GETTING A CAR ON SATURDAY! and yes this one WORKS and works WELL! so stoked. buying jada's car from her, williejoe is giving his to her and he will be driving his new one that he's been working on. $2,750. so stoked.

also, just fyi, IRON MAN is BALLINNNNNNN'

i'm really excited for this sumnmer, anne and candace and ruthanne will all be back in town and i'll have a car of my own. lots of the hang out with them and other folks that love Jesus, including shanelle.. crap man, i need more guy friends that love Him. bravehart and jeremiah are about all i got. haha.

this has been long enough. don't forget to love* God today!

*verb form.
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EIGHTY-SIX [Apr. 30th, 2008|01:24 am]
[Current Mood | peaceful]
[Current Music |you are so beautiful]

tonight was so good. no recording was done, but God showed up. ryan (guitar) and myself(bass), jared(drums) and nick(keys) played at the 24/7 house of worship and prayer tonight, seeking God's presence and pursuing Him. we played for a while and the atmosphere just shifted, everyone but nick stropped playing and i spent an hour on my face in the floor, laying at God's feet. and this may sound strange to some but i fell asleep at one point, and really if you've never fell asleep during a time of worship or in a time and place where God's presence is thick, i recommend it. it was wonderful and resting and relaxing. i got up and sat against the wall for a while just directing my thoughts on Him, praying from time to time.

the cool thing about the night is that.. well, yesterday i met this girl on myspace, named miriam.. it was completely random, she found me through a friend and she talked to me about the Lord a little and how she was struggling with some stuff but a blog i had written really encouraged her. anyways, this afternoon about ten minutes before i left my house she messaged me and we talked for a minute and i told her that i was playing at the 24/7 house tonight, and lo and behold, that's her church (not the 24/7 house but the church that the 24/7 house is at, word alive.) so i invited her to come, and she doesn't drive (though she is 21) so she said she probably wouldn't be able to, mostly cause she didn't have a ride home if her stepmom brought her. so i said "well if you can get there i can take you home, but i have to go to get there so maybe i'll see you tonight?" sent the message and left home.

well like a doofus, i left my keys at home, which have my church key on them (since i was driving my mom's car i just took her keys thinking i wouldn't need mine) so i pull up to my church to get my bass & amp and realize i can't get in. i drive 10 minutes back home, grab my keys, then 10 minutes back to the church, get my stuff then head out. the road i'm on is the main stretch to get to the church the 24/7 house is at, and the speed limit is 65. the speed the car in front of me is going? 35. i'm already 15 minutes late, by my own fault, but i get really irritated with this person in front of me - they're going half the freakin speed limit! the whole way til i have to take a left at a light, then i'm at the church. turns out it was the Lord putting them there in front of me, because as soon as they turn, which is right before the light, i pass a cop on the side of the road that i WOULD have sped by if i wasn't slowed down.

so i end up being 20 minutes late, and just as i'm unloading my gear from the car, miriam pulls up! surprise :D and it turns out that she had prayed that i or someone would be there outside when she got there so she wouldn't have to go in alone, or she would have felt really awkward and nervous. fortunately though, God allowed me to forget my keys and make me late, then get behind a slow driver and make me late - really i was righton time, in an answer to miriams prayer. how cool?

well anyways, she was there, and God really ministered to her there, she told me a little bit about it, how she's kind of been running from Him and living according to the opinion of man but He's pulling her back, and i don't really know much else specifically except that He is going to do something cool in her life through knowing me, and in my life through knowing her, she and i both feel that. she's really awesome and loves the Lord a whole lot, and i'm glad God introduced us. (don't get any ideas! nothing romantic involved, dudes.)

nick and miriam and i went to starbucks after that.. then i took miriam home, we enjoyed a 20 minute car ride getting to talk, i learned more about her. she might come to youth tomorrow at my church, so that will be cool.

aaaand i wrote a song on the car ride home from her house. played it when i got home, it's pretty awesome. it's a low-level acoustic worship song. i'll probably play it at youth tomorrow.

JESUS IS GOOD! how the heck did it end up getting to 1:41 AM!? i am going to bed. love & blessings.
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SEVENTY-EIGHT [Mar. 31st, 2008|12:04 am]
new myspace. selective friending.

http://www.myspace.com/lovejehovah

today's been a weird day. i overslept, missed worship practice, came home intending to nap but got distracted doing everything else. finally took a nap, got woken up by a terrifying dream and was kind of freaked out. i slept about an hour and a half longer than i intended to so i woke up with it being dark out, which i hate because it makes me feel weird.

bedtime soon, i suppose.
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SEVENTY-FOUR;one year. [Mar. 23rd, 2008|02:05 pm]
God, i'm really in awe.

today is my one year "birthday" as spiritual son to Williejoe and Jada. one year since we came into covenant with one another, for him to father me spiritually, and me to obey him in everything he say as a son would, as long as what he says doesn't violate God's Word. he's been telling me for a month or so that he had something to give me, a really special gift. his first (or first three) clue(s) two weeks ago was that every time he thought about it, he cried; every time Jada thought about, she cried; and every time Byron thought about it, Byron cried (Tasha as well, i'm assuming). today came and before service started today he gave me some more clues: it's incredibly important to him and Jada both; i am required to wear it, or i wouldn't get it; it won't fit me but it's still for me; i might one day be able to make it to fit me; i'd cry when he gave it to me.

after service he and Jada and myself, along with Byron and Tasha all went back into the church office and talked for a second and they all hugged me, and then began to pray over me. when they got done praying williejoe further committed himself to me as a father in that while in general he doesn't answer his cellphone a lot, he would always answer any time i called, and that no matter where i am and where he is, how far away he is, even if he is in a jungle somewhere preaching the Gospel, he is always with me, and he is always for me. with that he took a chain out of his pocket and said "jada and i had this sized to fit you, we didn't want it so long that you couldn't skateboard with it on, or too short, so we hope it's a good size for you. oh, and you can never take it off."

with that he took off his wedding band, the one Jada placed on his finger on their wedding day, put it on the chain, and put the chain around my neck.

and he was right, i cried my eyes out.
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FIFTY-SEVEN [Feb. 28th, 2008|03:00 pm]
[Current Mood | ever-changing]

God, I hate talking about You as if You're not in the room. You are with me, ALWAYS.
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FOURTEEN(the war in iraq, part two.) [Sep. 26th, 2007|12:40 am]
[Current Mood | distressed]

This letter was written in April by a soldier who served in Iraq, US Army Infantryman Sgt. Eddie Jeffers who was serving in Iraq. Sgt. Jeffers was killed in Iraq on September 19, 2007; he was 23.

it's powerful. )
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THIRTEEN(the war in iraq, part one.) [Sep. 24th, 2007|05:57 pm]
[Current Mood | undefined]

i want to make clear that i HATE war, and wish that none of it existed - but we're in the middle of it, so we have to deal with it. and i'd also like to point out that this is a war against TERRORISM, not against iraq. we are missioned to fight an agreeably evil entity, not set to destroy a harmless country.

this is an issue that is pretty strong in my heart. i hear so much media blasting about how everything is failing over there. the democrats and liberal media seem to be hell-bent on the troops failing and that there's no hope of success. and then when we start succeeding, they set the bar higher to a goal they think the troops can't meet. and a lot of people in the general population hear only this side of the story, for some reason, hearing casualty reports, stories of iraqui prisoners being mistreated, and i've heard too many times people talk about bombing buildings filled with innocent people, as if our military is a ruthless monster with no concience or conviction, and of course so is George bush (because we all know he issues every command to every person in the military and oversees every operation they do!).

nobody bothers to look into the good reports from iraq, which is funny because every political leader i've heard speak out on a trip they took to iraq to visit the troops and see what's being done notes on how much progress has been made and regardless of their stance before, they would then tell you that they support the troops and are proud of what's going on. and you'll rarely hear a soldier give a negative report. it just seems that people who don't involve themselves in the truth of the issue blast everything that's going on.

here are two letters from Joe Roche who serves in the U.S. Army's 16th Combat Engineer Battalion in Iraq - so needless to say, he knows what's going on first-hand. the first letter is his standpoint from his first-hand view of what's going on. the second is a statistical report of his battalion's accomplishments - a kind of report you won't likely hear on the news.

letter 1 )

letter 2 )

just think, for all the people who have been crying for us to pull out, if we had done so when people fisrt started saying that we should, the affected areas in iraq would have been left devestated and militant, with little to no power or running water; all the now established police forces, schools, universities, hospitals, banks and so forth would not exist, and terrorists would still have free riegn there.

want to complain about casualties? well of course i could bring out the point that soldiers voluntarily sign up, and are warned of what might face them, as Joe writes in another letter,
"Now, just as we are told to expect when joining, we are going to combat and many soldiers are getting injured and killed. This is our job, and it is what we know can happen. I don't know why the media insists on trumpeting the idea that all of us are tired and worn out and just want to stop fighting. I don't, and I am not alone."

of course it sucks and i'm NOT saying that it's okay but it definately is their decision to accept that possibility or decline it - noone makes them.

also, this caught me by surprise, from the same letter,
"My wife is in the National Guard. Theirs is an interesting experience right now in that there have been more casualties by accidents and reckless behavior off-duty than in Iraq and Afghanistan."

so much more to say.. but i have to run for now. there's a paer i have to find with some information i want to post here, when i find it i'll update again.
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SEVEN [Aug. 5th, 2007|11:54 pm]
back to work tomorrow; i am NOT excited about that. i enjoy my 3 days weekends, yep. hopefully i'll have one this week too, we'll see how that goes.

i don't think i've spent enough time with You the past week. and it really bums me out. i'll do better this week.

six days til sarah's heeeeeere. :]
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ONE [Jul. 31st, 2007|11:10 pm]
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